IT’S BEEN A WHILE, A LONG WHILE
WAITING FOR TIDES TO TURN
AND IN THE WAITING, I couldn’t write.
No words. They wouldn’t come.
If they did come, they didn’t warrant pen to paper. I silently withdrew and silently decided that three years would be enough. So I planned the celebration, and blew upon hope.
You will light our candle
And He did. Many times along the road, before this celebration, throwing us a life line that said “hold on, it’s going to be OK…. trust me”.
And then, with only weeks to go, we realised that our celebration was only to be another life line. Another “hold on”. But what a grand and blessed “hold on” it was. There’s a story in Exodus – on the road out of Egypt. They’d had enough. They’d been grumbling just as we have from time to time. God, the all knowing one, already knew they’d need a break and just up ahead they were to discover 12 springs and 70 palm trees, a nice place to stop and recoup
for the next leg of the journey. He called it “Elim”.
WE sheltered under the palm tree of this adventure. How thankful I am for “Elims” on this journey. Not the final destination but a good place to catch one’s breath. A good chance to be filled, refreshed, a good place to exhale. Peace.
And now I wonder at this feeling. This sense of tides turning and this season ending, maybe just as suddenly as it began and with it a new season starting for us – together, with my man, I’m not alone.
In just days we will get news of our future. “Lord let it not be another test of this faith”, furnace fired faith. And yet, as I say this, I know of many who have seen the fire again and again and if our fire isn’t over we will be ok.
I know He’s been with us in the fire – just like he was with those three boys all those years back.
How easy it would be to give up, to serve self when the fire gets too hot and say ‘what about me, don’t you see, don’t you know how hard this is?’ but it’s never all about ME. This has to have greater purpose. This almost laughable fire after fire has to be for a reason or it be futile.
“You’re going to come through this, I can see it, I can see the road and it has many bends many turns. It’s not going to be a straight road but you’re going to make it, you’re going to make it”
She could see it and I could hear God in her voice.
And so the winding road leads us home and like a flower unfolding I can feel something happening. I’m peeking out from my safe haven, the hiding place I’ve withdrawn to and I’m hoping I’ve got the strength not to retreat so I can say, or perhaps even sing “This is my story , this is my Song”
Perfect submission, all is at rest,
I in my Savior am happy and blest;
Watching and waiting, looking above,
Filled with His goodness, lost in His love.
We trust in our God WE WILL NOT BE SHAKEN